Why I am loving the World Cup…

June 29, 2010 at 7:31 pm (2010)

Long Street,where I was on opening day weee that was a good night 🙂

  1. I can feel the African spirit pouring through my vein’s, the “gees” and for the first time in a long time I am feeling well and truly proud to be South African.
  2. Where else in the world would you wake up to the sound of honking horns, face’s painted, people dancing in the streets.
  3. Archbishop Desmond Tutu, I love that guy, “I feel like I am in a dreeem!”
  4. Watching the opening concert and the texts back on forth between myself and Vic, tears streaming just because we are so proud of our country.
  5. Watching black, white and coloured faces all joining together in the crowds around SA singing the National Anthem together.
  6. Meeting some amazing people from all over the world, having a laugh and having a beer and being devastated when England lost with their back sides in the air.
  7. Seeing South Africa well and truly showing the world what we are made of.
  8. The new high way link between De Waal, Hospital Bend and Rhodes drive, no more playing dodge the taxi while trying to cross 3 lanes of traffic.
  9. World Cup exhaustion, there aint nothing like rocking up to work after 3hrs of sleep, one too many tequila’s and a shiny gangsta top that says Cameroon on the back and the clothes you wore yesterday.
  10. Craziness, pure unadulterated craziness, sharing vuvuzela’s, dying of the swine and still partying till dawn.

Only two more weeks of exhaustion but hey, its only once in my lifetime I reckon, so its worth it!!

H 🙂

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Closure and the big 30

June 20, 2010 at 1:25 pm (2010)

The good, the bad and the ugly should be the title of this post but hey, its been a high string of emotion over the last few days, weeks, months but it’s finally here, I’m finally 30. After yesterdays ugly cries and laughs and giggles and arguments I feel like I am finally seeing the things clearly, the fog has been lifted and I can think straight again. I have realised who my true friends are and I have also realised that it’s over, finally over.

In true Cape Town fashion some people were dickheads, in the true spirit of friendship the people that mattered really mattered yesterday. People came through and really made my birthday feel special after spending the day crying and panicking and running around like a headless chicken.

I have come to the realisation that the reason why this birthday is so shit is because you get to a point where you go “FUCK, what have I done for the last 30 years and what have I achieved.” As you are growing up you have these plans for your life, by the time I am 30 I will be a journalist, by the time I am 30 I will be barefoot and pregnant, by the time I am 30 I will have married the love of my life and then you get here and you don’t have any of those things and then you go “FUCK, what now?” Time to set some goals and actually achieve them. The journey to 30 has been a great one though, the amount of shit I have gotten up to and the amount of good times and kak times but generally what a fucking epic journey thus far.

I finally got closure on Furball, it finally feels like the story has ended, the romantic fantasy I been living and building up in my head has finally been closed, that chapter of my life is over and funnily enough I am not really sad about it because I have a wonderful friend out of it. Someone that went all out for my birthday, someone who truly made me feel like a princess on my birthday. Besides the pepper spray and bouncers last night was a good night and I love him and all my other crazy friends for it.

My head is pounding and I have a filthy house to clean, there’s so much to say but not enough energy to say it.

So till next time or maybe later…

H

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Its just easier that way…

June 7, 2010 at 4:44 pm (2010)

There is so much to tell I will try and condense it into a few sentences because to be quite honest I am so over speaking about it.  I gave the player the boot, I realised as much as I enjoy playing games, playing games with someone you like only ever ends up hurting you. I did what I always do and wrote him a deep any meaningful letter and I was just blatantly honest, as only I can be. It gave me alot of closure, I dont feel the need to speak to him anymore, maybe one day we can be friends but I really dont need things to be complicated right now. I have my life to lead and I dont need someone who doesnt know who they are or what they want to shit on my parade and make me feel insecure about myself. Its just easier to be single right now, until I can face my fear of rejection in the work place I dont think I can face my fear of rejection in other avenues of my life, make sense?

Two weeks till I’m thirty, I’m actually afraid of that word – thirty – people are starting to look at me like I should stop the partying and become sensible, settle down, white picket fence and babies but what do they expect, my perfect match to just drop from the sky and I mean seriously do they expect me to settle like I have seen so many people do, I refuse to settle, I would rather be single and playing the game for the rest of my life than settle for someone who wont make me happy. Look its not ideal in any sense of the word, I would like to meet someone and have all these things but not if it means spending my life with someone who I just chose because it was convenient and my overies were starting to die then it wouldnt be worth it.

I feel rather hurt, rejected and angry at the moment and I could boy bash to my hearts content but I’m not going to. I could also just do what I did on Saturday night and throw name down my throat – Tequila, but its not worth it. Moving on. I’m finally moving to town and I hope that new adventure brings new beqinnings, like minded people and only good things, its time to tackle that mountain that I’ve avoided for so long and I’m scared and excited and I dont know where to begin.

H

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Carly Simon – Let the River Run

June 4, 2010 at 5:57 pm (2010)

We’re coming to the edge
running on the water
coming through the fog
your sons and daughters

Let the river run
let all the dreamers wake the nation
Come, the New Jerusalem.

Silver cities rise
the morning lights the streets that lead them
and sirens call them on with a song

It’s asking for the taking
trembling
shaking
Oh, my heart is aching

We’re coming to the edge
running on the water
coming through the fog
your sons and daughters

We the great and small
stand on a star
and blaze a trail of desire
through the darkening dawn

It’s asking for the taking
Come run with me now
the sky is the color of blue
you’ve never even seen
in the eyes of your lover

Oh, my heart is aching
We’re coming to the edge
running on the water
coming through the fog
your sons and daughters

It’s asking for the taking
trembling, shaking
Oh, my heart is aching

We’re coming to the edge
running on the water
coming through the fog
your sons and daughters

Let the river run
let all the dreamers
wake the nation
Come, the New Jerusalem.

Songs that are your secret guilty pleasures, songs that make you feel like you can do anything – this is one of them.

H

PS So much to tell but the Mask is on and the lettuce is calling 😉

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